Read between those dreaming eyes….

It’s been raining hard these days.

Until now, I can’t seem to find my way back.The road has been blocked by fallen trees, car accidents, numerous people walking to and fro the side walks and even in the side of the road.

Inside the FX, the view was a bit blurred, maybe due to heavy rain. But I still see people passing by us, they’re not stopping even once. I wonder why they’re so busy.

I decided to walk. I get off the FX ride and started walking.

As soon as I get my first step, memories came flashing back. And it’s like a song:

There I was, an empty piece of a shell,
Just minding my own world;
Without even knowin’ what love and life were all about
Then you came,

You have been my inspiration. Someone I thought and wished would be mine. I’ve asked if I could have you. But then I forgot what’s the answer.

Or am I…

And you gave me something I will never regret. I’ve experience the sweetest joy that I’ll never forget and hopes to forget. Yeah,I know, it’s somewhat contradicting.

Dreaming…

I have done foolishness from liking you to loving you. But that doesn’t matter now, nor do I to you.

Hoping..

I’ve been to a placed. Hmm…I know this place. I seem to have gotten here before. But what’s happened? The typhoon must have hit so hard that the place was badly damage. Everything’s been crashed. This place was once a beautiful place. A place where I kept my dreams and wishes for you… </3

Or am I just dreaming and hoping for such things?

Ang sakit na… My mind’s not functioning well. Nasira na ata ang isip ko sa pag gawa ng blog na ito.. Dati kapag mabigat ang pakiramdam ko, making blog was all I needed to ease this pain. Reminiscing is just a way to easily write a blog. But what the heck is happening to me…

I kept on thinking about you. I kept on seeing the past. I can’t move.

It is starting to rain now. I have forgotten to bring my umbrella in writing this blog post.

Rain..rain…rain…

no.. it’s not rain…

it’s not coming from the outside. it’s coming from me. it’s so precious.

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It’s my tears. 😥

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but what’s with the FX ride?

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It’s my journey towards loving you.

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but the busy people…

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it’s the people around you that’s not getting tired of protecting you. Some have gotten into hurts (accidents) just to protect you.. Fallen trees are moments you’ve let to passed because you’re busy focusing in the wrong direction.

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what about the place? I think I know that place.

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That’s you! You’re far too different now. You’ve enjoyed that ride, but when the typhoon came, you came crashing down, and tearing yourself up. You’ve been badly hurt. But then, many have helped you, though it may take time healing wounds and covering bruises, still that ride have been one of the best ride you ever gotten into.

General, I love you.

and because of that…

I’m letting you go.

Trust is the fundamental foundation in a relationship. If you have break it from the start of building it, then it’ll no good to stay within in, cause sooner or later, it’ll be broken again.

-creymi (prinsesa ni jin)

“I’m glad we’ve met.”

“Siya lang pala ang mag-pu-push sa akin to get a PB.”

May naalala lang ako. ^_^

 

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I’ve got my request form for a patriarchal blessing last MARCH 2011. I am excited to know what will be my guide as I embraced future. But then, at that time, no patriarch is yet available in our stake, so I had to go find in some other Stake where there is a patriarch..

My sisterettes and I have been planning a lot to get our PB, but hadn’t had any opportunity to do so. And as days passed by, I totally forget about it.

 

Until he came…

 

Like a whirlwind, he got all of our attention as we had heard that he had gotten his PB..

“Agaw atensyon ba?” Sobra. c”,)

Getting PB is just as simple as 123, IF and ONLY IF you’re COMMITTED to do so. And that is what I regret that I DIDN’T do at the first place..

I always got this attitude of getting excited and then all of a sudden I lost control,

and….

just like that, I will forget everything I HAD to do.

 

GOOD THING… He came and reminded me of my responsibility.

 

Now, I could say,

 

“I’m glad we’ve met.”

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c”,)

Listen…

Time check. 00:09

A while ago, minutes just before the midnight, I was so broke. I try to read the scriptures (english and filipino version). But I hadn’t had a good focus. I understand some of it but something inside me want to burst. I felt the need to write.

But what would I write?  I told myself.

As I started my nowhere to go work, I see myself writing a letter. It is full of emotions. I felt confusion, being restless and sick, even feeling sorry for the things I’ve done.  I thought it would made me feel better, but it wouldn’t. Nothing change.

I finished the letter. I go over the fridge to get my choco drink which I prepared earlier to get me to sleep. While I was drinking, I once again heard the beeping of the cellphone.

Urrghh. Wrong timing. I don’t want to view the incoming messages. There are a lot already. But I don’t know, something pushed me to read a group message send by a friend.

At the end of the message, I see the name which we often called each other. It’s like term of endearment. I guess.

So there it goes. A simple message was addressed for me.

***** hug

I was moved. I hurriedly looked at the time it was sent. I am reading it so late for more than 15 minutes. I thought my friend was already asleep. I felt so bad.

But then, I tried to reach my mom’s phone.

There’s nothing wrong to try. I guess.

I type her number as fast as I could. I try to console her with my ever funny approach of giving her the best of my hugs (even through text) and assure her everything will be alright with a simple prayer.

I’m hoping that the next day, as she read my message it would made her smile.

I was wrong. It comes soon enough. A few minutes after I send her my message, she replied. I felt overwhelmed. A simple text message made her ok (at least for the moment) and made me grateful that in a way I can’t even imagined.

I’m thankful for the miracle of prayer. For the blessing it had given me, and I was able to share.

For the scriptures, for the direction it lead me.

For the promptings of the Holy Ghost that continually inspires me.

And for the truth that Jesus Christ lives. And He will never leave nor forsake us.

In times like this, when no one knows your in pain, have faith in Him whom the prophets of old and present continues to bear testimony of the truthfulness of His existence, of His Glory.

I know my Redeemer lives. This is my testimony.

End. 00:43

When will I learn?

Every time I will get a visit from our Stake YW President, I always have things I do wrong. I don’t know why I act like that. She didn’t do me any harm. None at all. But why I am so terribly stressed when she’s around?

Now, I’m bothered by this kind of attitude I have.

 

 

cont…

Company Profile: PNB

PNB is the bank for the Filipino wherever he or she may be– in the country’s centers of commerce and industry, in the far reaches of the countryside, and even in
many places across the globe.”

Mission Statement

We are a leading, dynamic Filipino financial services group with a global presence committed to delivering a whole range of quality products and services that will create value and enrich the lives of our customers, employees, shareholders and the communities we serve.

Vision 2010 and Beyond

To be the most admired financial services organization in the country in terms of:

• Financial performance – rank #1 or #2 in its businesses in terms of return on equity
• Innovativeness – in products, services, distribution and the use of cutting-edge technology
• Customer perception
  • The preferred financial services provider
  • The customer-centered organization with a passion for service excellence
• Social responsibility – the employer of choice, a good corporate citizen and partner in nation-building
• Long-term vision – developing competitive advantage on a sustained basis by anticipating changes in customer’s preferences and in the manner of doing business

 

 

Thanks to http://www.pnb.com.ph/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=50&Itemid=60 for the info.

Company Profile: City Civil Registry Department

Civil Registration is the continuous, permanent, compulsory recording of the occurrence and characteristics of vital events as these have been defined and as provided through decree or regulation, in accordance with the legal requirements in each country. It is done primarily for the value of these important records as legal documents, and secondary for their usefulness as source of statistics.

The recording in the corresponding register of birth, death, marriage, court decree and other legal instrument affecting the civil status of a person is the responsibility of the local registrar of the place where the event occurred or where the decree was issued.

Mandated:

• To attain maximum efficiency in Civil Registration and enhance productive output for maximum benefit of the public;
• To be responsive to the legal instrumentalities needed/applied by constituents/ petitioners;
• To be effective in transmitting copies of legal instruments to the National Statistics Office and Office of the Civil Registrar General;
• To be efficient in the delivery of service to clients in our daily transactions;
• To be transparent in our dealings and transactions. We maintain the policy of “No Payment, No Issuance”;
• To be accountable and responsible to whatever registrable instrument/documents this department issues to the public;
• To upgrade the quality of services of City-owned public cemeteries, namely Bagbag, Baesa, and Novaliches;
• To act on Petitions for Clerical/Typographical Error committed in the performance of clerical work for the birth, marriage, and death certificates reflecting civil personality of an individual, like spelling, displacement of words, maiden name of mother, date and place of marriage of parents and other errors not included are errors on nationality, age, civil status, and sex of petitioners;
• To act on Petitions for Change of First Name – pertains not only to change of first name but also the deletion of a first name to those having two first names or an addition of another first name to those deserving to have two first names;
• Act allowing illegitimate children to use the surname of their father.

 

Thanks to http://www.quezoncity.gov.ph/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=82:city-civil-registry-department&catid=40:alleviating-poverty&Itemid=37 for the info.

Last Days… :( (Feb 28- March 04)

 

 

 

Hmm… Ito na naman..

As what a song says: “I hate this part right here.”

My last week.

Since it is a start of a new month, I made new cover page for our filing records; check the lists of forms (if there are enough stock), and compile the last month’s files to record.

Also, I do my second and last time to do, MONTHLY REPORT. I asked my supervisor if we will going to make one. whew…

So far, I’m happy because I have done it only for 1 hour. (yyyeesss!!) And only a few trashed bond papers.

Also, this week, I become an instant trainer. (yyeess!! It’s true. ) The new OJT came. (I was the last to finished in our batch) I teach her the things she must do in every transaction. I give her some points, (I hope will help her), to make her to easily get at ease with the department.

 

PARTY PEOPLE… 03/04/2011

 

 

My last day was a blast. hahaha… Ma’am Jo treat us lunch @ Jollibee. We had our time of bonding the whole day. It seems a had acquired a new mom.

 

 

 

 

This is Ma’am Grace. She had always helped me do my tasks. Unfortunately, she’s absent during my last day because her daughter is sick.

 

Thanks for the wonderful experience CCRO-NDC.

A Week of Rest…(February 21-25)

 

Only a week before I will complete my OJT hours. I tend to be groggy when times like this would came. I felt more and more tired as days passed. I’m wanting to do more jobs but it’s like a joke since fewer and fewer clients came to our office, not much of a work. But I still do my best (if work will turn up) so I will not give disappointments to my bosses.

I observed somehow that on this month, we have more clients of applying for marriage license than of the last month’s. I wonder if this is because this month is love month. (err… IDK…hahaha)

I don’t have much to report this week. hahaha…

Even in doing this week’s blog, I felt so tired.

Lots of ♥♥♥ (Feb 14-18, 2011)

Happy Hearts Week…

Happy Single Awareness Day… 😀

An exhausting yet wonderful Club’s week has past and now I’m back to reality.

 

02/17/2011

I received a text message this morning coming from Ma’am Grace asking me if I were to come to work this day. I got up as fast as I could. I’m excited to go to back to NDC. ♥♥♥

I felt like an employee coming back from a suspension. hahaha… I miss the place so much, my boss, my workplace, and some other things. ♥♥♥

I do my regular routine. I check and clean my table (“my” – I am a dreamer!), do some clerical work, like filing, typing some forms, recording, and releasing request forms (if clients arrived) etc. .

02/18/2011: Art is Cool.

Yesterday, I asked some help from Kyna to clean some old files. We asked our 2 boss if we could trashed some old files. They agreed, so we do some general cleaning. I planned this earlier so I bring some colour pens. We had a good time re-arranging the files, changing folders, trash in – trash out.

Me busy?? (Feb 7-11)

 

Seminar. Report. OJT. Club’s week.

A busy week for me, I guess (in school).

Happy that nothing really busied me that much here in CCRO. I do my usual routine like recording, filing, receive request, clean workplace, use wi-fi (ooppss!), and soundtrip. hahahaha…

I told my boss about my schedule and she approved my excuse to absent in Friday for the seminar.